Oh, sweet friend, God is good, and He is faithful!

When I left my workplace last year with no other work lined up, a few people asked if I’d lost my mind, and at the time I smiled politely and said “no.”

But, you know what?

Over the past year, I have lost part of my mind. Little by little, God has broken through a history of shameful thoughts, worn down my haughty spirit, overcome my worldly tendencies.

I have lost part of my mind, and I pray I continue to lose it, for each part of my mind that is lost, God replaces it with part of the mind of Christ, brighter, kinder, freer than ever before.

Truly friend, there is no greater love than the love of God. Though I cried and fussed and stalled and rebelled and questioned and even yelled at Him a few times, still He held me and He taught me. Still, He walked me through hard days. Still, He led me to wise Brothers and Sisters who spoke His words in a way that brought clarity and healing.

Though I continue to experience the breaking, still I will praise Almighty God. Though it hurts sometimes, still I will exalt the name of the Lord our God. Though I grieve at times, still I will trust His way is best and yield to the Holy Spirit.

Why?

Because there is no other who is mighty to save like the Living God. There is no other who can heal like Jehovah Rapha, who can bring peace like Jehovah Shalom.

Brought to mind one day as I prayed and on loop in heart nearly every day is this song:

“Take all I have in these hands
And multiply, God, all that I am
And find my heart on the altar again
Set me on fire, set me on fire

Here I am, God arms wide open
Pouring out my life
Gracefully broken”

And I’m standing on the promises of the next part:

“My heart stands in awe of Your name
Your mighty love stands strong to the end
You will fulfill Your purpose in me
You won’t forsake me, You will be with me”
(Gracefully Broken, Latasha Cobbs Leonard)

I don’t know what the next year holds in terms or work or ministry. I’m trusting God’s leading and holding any plans or dreams of my own very loosely.

What I do know is that come what may, I will praise God for He is good! I will lift His name on high for the wonderful works He does for the children of men!